You have always been an inspiration to me...
12.20.2008
12.16.2008
12.12.2008
Thankful
I've traveled here and everywhere
Following my job.
I've seen the paintings from the air
Brushed by the hand of God.
The mountains and the canyons reach from sea to shining sea.
But I can't wait to get back home
To the one he made for me.
It's anywhere I'll ever go and everywhere I've been.
Nothing takes my breath away
Like my front porch looking in.
I'm so blessed. I have it real good.
Following my job.
I've seen the paintings from the air
Brushed by the hand of God.
The mountains and the canyons reach from sea to shining sea.
But I can't wait to get back home
To the one he made for me.
It's anywhere I'll ever go and everywhere I've been.
Nothing takes my breath away
Like my front porch looking in.
I'm so blessed. I have it real good.
10.26.2008
Bumpy Road
Along life's road
There will be sunshine and rain
Roses and thorns, laughter and pain.
And 'cross the miles
You will face mountains so steep
Deserts so long and valleys so deep.
Sometimes the Journey's gentle
Sometimes the cold winds blow
But I want you to remember
I want you to know
You will never walk alone.
As long as you have faith
Jesus will be right beside you all the way.
And you may feel you're far from home
But home is where He is .
And He'll be there down every road
You will never walk alone.
The path will wind
And you will find wonders and fears
Labors of love and a few falling tears.
Across the years
There will be some twists and turns
Mistakes to make and lessons to learn.
Sometimes the journey's gentle
Sometimes the cold winds blow
But I want you to remember wherever you may go
You will never walk alone.
As long as you have faith
Jesus will be right beside you all the way.
And you may feel you're far from home
But home is where He is .
And He'll be there down every road
You will never walk alone .
Jesus knows your joy, Jesus knows your need.
He will go the distance with you faithfully.
There will be sunshine and rain
Roses and thorns, laughter and pain.
And 'cross the miles
You will face mountains so steep
Deserts so long and valleys so deep.
Sometimes the Journey's gentle
Sometimes the cold winds blow
But I want you to remember
I want you to know
You will never walk alone.
As long as you have faith
Jesus will be right beside you all the way.
And you may feel you're far from home
But home is where He is .
And He'll be there down every road
You will never walk alone.
The path will wind
And you will find wonders and fears
Labors of love and a few falling tears.
Across the years
There will be some twists and turns
Mistakes to make and lessons to learn.
Sometimes the journey's gentle
Sometimes the cold winds blow
But I want you to remember wherever you may go
You will never walk alone.
As long as you have faith
Jesus will be right beside you all the way.
And you may feel you're far from home
But home is where He is .
And He'll be there down every road
You will never walk alone .
Jesus knows your joy, Jesus knows your need.
He will go the distance with you faithfully.
10.22.2008
If You're Going Through Hell
If your going through hell
Keep on going, don't slow down
If you're scared don't show it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there.
Yeah, If you're going through hell
Keep on moving, face that fire
Walk right through it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there.
Keep on going, don't slow down
If you're scared don't show it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there.
Yeah, If you're going through hell
Keep on moving, face that fire
Walk right through it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there.
10.08.2008
10.01.2008
Happy 13th Birthday to Me
It's my spiritual birthday. The day I got baptized in front of my church. A day between God and I. Although the road hasn't been a bed of roses, he has never left my side.
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29.11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29.11
9.25.2008
Blue Skies
I've been bumming for a while now, however I know things are going to get better. I don't like change even when I know it's going to happen.... The pizza. The roommate. The movie last night. Good times. Kept me chill.
On days of gray
When doubt clouds my view
Its so hard to see past my fears.
My strength seems to fade
And its all I can do
To hold on, til the light reappears.
Still, I believe though some rains bound to fall
That you're here next to me.
And you're over it all.
The skys still blue
For my hope is in you
You're my joy
You're the dream thats still alive.
Like the wind at my back
And the sun on my face.
You are life
You're grace
You are blue skies.
On days of gray
When doubt clouds my view
Its so hard to see past my fears.
My strength seems to fade
And its all I can do
To hold on, til the light reappears.
Still, I believe though some rains bound to fall
That you're here next to me.
And you're over it all.
The skys still blue
For my hope is in you
You're my joy
You're the dream thats still alive.
Like the wind at my back
And the sun on my face.
You are life
You're grace
You are blue skies.
9.21.2008
Patience is a Virtue
I've had the worst "luck" these past couple of months. Jim and I are searching for our perfect condo, however everywhere we look leads us to a dead end. It has been a complete emotional roller coaster ride. We are on a deadline to an extent, so I would like to find a place in the time we have, although I'm coming to realize that it isn't my time that we are on. It's God's. Our times aren't matching which is even more frustrating.
For instance, I'll be talking to someone and they'll mention to me that they just bought a new house. I want to scream, "No! I'm the one looking not you!" It seems like everyone around me is getting my wish.
I will be the first to say how selfish this sounds, but get real: we are all selfish. We all want things. We all strive to get things. It's just a fact of life. However, as each day approaches us, I'm beginning to remember how we receive things in life. Prayer. Even though God works on his time, when we pray, we're coming to him for guidance, support and knowledge to lead us to which path to choose when we come to that fork in the road. We can always lean on that power of prayer to guide us to where we need to be in life.
We are really fortunate. We have a great place that we live in now that is in an excellent area in Beverly. We have food, clothes and jobs. And I can not express how grateful I am to have the necessities in life.
So, my dear readers, I'm asking you to pray for us. Please. We have come across disappointment after disappointment with a lot of personal situations in the last couple of months that has become very discouraging to me. It's been extremely hard to actually wake up and put a smile on my face everyday and act like nothing is wrong. I'm not one to spill out all my feelings to anyone either but what else can we do?
Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Matthew 6.25
For instance, I'll be talking to someone and they'll mention to me that they just bought a new house. I want to scream, "No! I'm the one looking not you!" It seems like everyone around me is getting my wish.
I will be the first to say how selfish this sounds, but get real: we are all selfish. We all want things. We all strive to get things. It's just a fact of life. However, as each day approaches us, I'm beginning to remember how we receive things in life. Prayer. Even though God works on his time, when we pray, we're coming to him for guidance, support and knowledge to lead us to which path to choose when we come to that fork in the road. We can always lean on that power of prayer to guide us to where we need to be in life.
We are really fortunate. We have a great place that we live in now that is in an excellent area in Beverly. We have food, clothes and jobs. And I can not express how grateful I am to have the necessities in life.
So, my dear readers, I'm asking you to pray for us. Please. We have come across disappointment after disappointment with a lot of personal situations in the last couple of months that has become very discouraging to me. It's been extremely hard to actually wake up and put a smile on my face everyday and act like nothing is wrong. I'm not one to spill out all my feelings to anyone either but what else can we do?
Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Matthew 6.25
9.11.2008
It's 9/11 Where were you?
Senior year of high school. I remember the morning being balmy, as the sun beated down on me as I walked from one campus building to the other in order to take our senior class picture. All 728 of us seated in the gymnasium. Sweet. I didn't have to sit through another English class with whats-his-name. He never remember my last name either, so we're even. I just had to go to Psychology class and then I was done for the day. Yay for early release!
By the time I reached psych. class the first plane had just hit the North Building. The words, "holy shit" unconsciously flew out of my mouth. We sat there stunned, in silence.
When I arrived home the North Building had just collapsed. "What do you mean it just collapsed?" I asked my mom who was sitting on the couch with my sister scrutinizing the television screen. For the rest of the day our eyes were glued to Aaron Brown as he reported every detail of September 11, 2001. For the weeks to come we listened to the eerie sound of silence as no planes flew over my parent's house.
The hours seemed like minutes, and yet the minutes have become seven years. Can you believe that? Seven years have gone by. Seven years since we entered the war with Iraq and I don't think the mourning process ceases to being close to over with our country. On the other hand, I was flabbergasted as I flipped through the channels this evening and saw next to nothing about this tragic event. Is it already a hush-hush ordeal? The next day we got word that our music director of our church had been killed. He was definitely an inspiration to us all.
This morning at work we didn't have our usual meeting. No papers were handed out about our LY numbers or our STD/WTD compared to other stores. "Remember how important today is." That's what they told us. I wish every meeting could be like that.
This is a day in our history that we are able to tell our children and our children's children what we were doing just like our grandmothers tell us where they were when Pearl Harbor was attacked or when Kennedy was shot. "Grocery shopping," is what mine says. It's good to remember.
By the time I reached psych. class the first plane had just hit the North Building. The words, "holy shit" unconsciously flew out of my mouth. We sat there stunned, in silence.
When I arrived home the North Building had just collapsed. "What do you mean it just collapsed?" I asked my mom who was sitting on the couch with my sister scrutinizing the television screen. For the rest of the day our eyes were glued to Aaron Brown as he reported every detail of September 11, 2001. For the weeks to come we listened to the eerie sound of silence as no planes flew over my parent's house.
The hours seemed like minutes, and yet the minutes have become seven years. Can you believe that? Seven years have gone by. Seven years since we entered the war with Iraq and I don't think the mourning process ceases to being close to over with our country. On the other hand, I was flabbergasted as I flipped through the channels this evening and saw next to nothing about this tragic event. Is it already a hush-hush ordeal? The next day we got word that our music director of our church had been killed. He was definitely an inspiration to us all.
This morning at work we didn't have our usual meeting. No papers were handed out about our LY numbers or our STD/WTD compared to other stores. "Remember how important today is." That's what they told us. I wish every meeting could be like that.
This is a day in our history that we are able to tell our children and our children's children what we were doing just like our grandmothers tell us where they were when Pearl Harbor was attacked or when Kennedy was shot. "Grocery shopping," is what mine says. It's good to remember.
9.10.2008
Is Your Friendship For Sale?
When its 3 am and she's at your door
and she wants you back
and she's begging for forgiveness.
remember that
When your phone keeps ringing all night long
and that same old weakness gets so strong that you're helpless
remember that.
It doesn't matter how she hurts
you with her hands or with her words
you don't deserve it
it ain't worth it
take your heart and run.
Remember that...
and she wants you back
and she's begging for forgiveness.
remember that
When your phone keeps ringing all night long
and that same old weakness gets so strong that you're helpless
remember that.
It doesn't matter how she hurts
you with her hands or with her words
you don't deserve it
it ain't worth it
take your heart and run.
Remember that...
9.04.2008
Do No Worry
I received this story through an e-mail at work this afternoon and I literally got tears. From all the things that have been going on this past week, I really need to take a step back, breathe, and not worry, because everything happens in its own time.
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John is the kind of guy you love to hate. He is always in a good mood and
always has something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was
doing, he would reply, 'If I were any better, I would be twins!'
He was a natural motivator.
If an employee was having a bad day, John was there telling the employee how
to look on the positive side of the situation.
Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up and asked
him, 'I don't get it! You can't be a positive person all of the time. How do
you do it?'
He replied, 'Each morning I wake up and say to myself, you have two choices
today. You can choose to be in a good mood or ... you can choose to be in a
bad mood
I choose to be in a good mood.'
Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or...I can
choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it. \
Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their
complaining or I can point out the positive side of life. I choose the
positive side of life.
'Yeah, right, it's not that easy,' I protested.
'Yes, it is,' he said. 'Life is all about choices. When you cut away all
the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to
situations. You choose how people affect your mood.
You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. The bottom line: It's your
choice how you live your life.'
I reflected on what he said. Soon hereafter, I left the Tower Industry to
start my own business. We lost touch, but I often thought about him when I
made a choice about life instead of reacting to it.
Several years later, I heard that he was involved in a serious accident,
falling some 60 feet from a communications tower.
After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, he was released from
the hospital with rods placed in his back.
I saw him about six months after the accident.
When I asked him how he was, he replied, 'If I were any better, I'd be
twins...Wanna see my scars?'
I declined to see his wounds, but I did ask him what had gone through his
mind as the accident took place.
'The first thing that went through my mind was the well-being of my
soon-to-be born daughter,' he replied. 'Then, as I lay on the ground, I
remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live or...I could
choose to die. I chose to live.'
'Weren't you scared? Did you lose consciousness?' I asked
He continued, '..the paramedics were great.
They kept telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into
the ER and I saw the expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I
got really scared. In their eyes, I read 'he's a dead man'. I knew I needed
to take action.'
'What did you do?' I asked.
'Well, there was a big burly nurse shouting questions at me,' said John.
'She asked if I was allergic to anything 'Yes, I replied.' The doctors and
nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and
yelled, 'Gravity'.'
Over their laughter, I told them, 'I am choosing to live. Operate on me as
if I am alive, not dead.'
He lived, thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his
amazing attitude... I learned from him that every day we have the choice to
live fully.
Attitude, after all, is everything.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about
itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.' Matthew 6:34.
After all today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.
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John is the kind of guy you love to hate. He is always in a good mood and
always has something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was
doing, he would reply, 'If I were any better, I would be twins!'
He was a natural motivator.
If an employee was having a bad day, John was there telling the employee how
to look on the positive side of the situation.
Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up and asked
him, 'I don't get it! You can't be a positive person all of the time. How do
you do it?'
He replied, 'Each morning I wake up and say to myself, you have two choices
today. You can choose to be in a good mood or ... you can choose to be in a
bad mood
I choose to be in a good mood.'
Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or...I can
choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it. \
Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their
complaining or I can point out the positive side of life. I choose the
positive side of life.
'Yeah, right, it's not that easy,' I protested.
'Yes, it is,' he said. 'Life is all about choices. When you cut away all
the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to
situations. You choose how people affect your mood.
You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. The bottom line: It's your
choice how you live your life.'
I reflected on what he said. Soon hereafter, I left the Tower Industry to
start my own business. We lost touch, but I often thought about him when I
made a choice about life instead of reacting to it.
Several years later, I heard that he was involved in a serious accident,
falling some 60 feet from a communications tower.
After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, he was released from
the hospital with rods placed in his back.
I saw him about six months after the accident.
When I asked him how he was, he replied, 'If I were any better, I'd be
twins...Wanna see my scars?'
I declined to see his wounds, but I did ask him what had gone through his
mind as the accident took place.
'The first thing that went through my mind was the well-being of my
soon-to-be born daughter,' he replied. 'Then, as I lay on the ground, I
remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live or...I could
choose to die. I chose to live.'
'Weren't you scared? Did you lose consciousness?' I asked
He continued, '..the paramedics were great.
They kept telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into
the ER and I saw the expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I
got really scared. In their eyes, I read 'he's a dead man'. I knew I needed
to take action.'
'What did you do?' I asked.
'Well, there was a big burly nurse shouting questions at me,' said John.
'She asked if I was allergic to anything 'Yes, I replied.' The doctors and
nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and
yelled, 'Gravity'.'
Over their laughter, I told them, 'I am choosing to live. Operate on me as
if I am alive, not dead.'
He lived, thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his
amazing attitude... I learned from him that every day we have the choice to
live fully.
Attitude, after all, is everything.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about
itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.' Matthew 6:34.
After all today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.
9.01.2008
All Summer Long
Every summer has an infamous song that everyone is still humming as school starts again. Here's 2008's.
8.27.2008
Amazing Grace
I cried at work today. I usually don't. Actually, I don't think I ever have. My feelings were hurt to the degree that I almost gave my two weeks notice. First of all, I fully understand that I can't announce my two weeks notice because I don't have another job lined up, and second I'm perfectly aware that no else can "hurt" my feelings. It's the way I interpret their words. To make a long story short, and not bore anyone with the details, my manager was extremely stressed about a show she had to be at tonight. In the midst of running around, she said something to me that hit home. I can usually take her criticism as long as I receive a check every Friday, however the words she used towards me this afternoon were unnecessary. In my defense I did stick up for myself to an extent, however I was so mad I wanted to say what was really on my mind, but then I remembered the Proverbs we have been reading in our weekly bible study on Monday nights:
"A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger," Proverbs 15.
After she left I was so upset. I cursed myself for not saying more, but thought again: In my daily life, how many times do I curse God in the moment of stress? How many times do I blame him for my irresponsibilities? How many times does he lash back at me when I do this? None. Even though I would love a good fight sporadically because that's just my nature, he's always forgiving, loving and opens his arms whenever I tend to fall. (For me that's a lot).
In order to be more like him, this is what I need to do. Even if she doesn't apologize, I still need to be understanding and forgiving. God has such an amazing grace the he shows me every single day that makes me more like him. How cool is that? I need to show this amazing grace as well.
The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures
My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace
"A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger," Proverbs 15.
After she left I was so upset. I cursed myself for not saying more, but thought again: In my daily life, how many times do I curse God in the moment of stress? How many times do I blame him for my irresponsibilities? How many times does he lash back at me when I do this? None. Even though I would love a good fight sporadically because that's just my nature, he's always forgiving, loving and opens his arms whenever I tend to fall. (For me that's a lot).
In order to be more like him, this is what I need to do. Even if she doesn't apologize, I still need to be understanding and forgiving. God has such an amazing grace the he shows me every single day that makes me more like him. How cool is that? I need to show this amazing grace as well.
The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures
My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace
8.26.2008
Memories
The lights are much brighter there
You can forget all your troubles, forget all your cares and go
Downtown, things willl be great when you're
Downtown, no finer place for sure,
Downtown, everything's waiting for you.
You can forget all your troubles, forget all your cares and go
Downtown, things willl be great when you're
Downtown, no finer place for sure,
Downtown, everything's waiting for you.
8.19.2008
Oh The Anticipation!
Keeping in contact with everyone in Florida, things are just going. This is the time where you just "wait."
8.18.2008
Florida Starts School...NOT!
So today was the first day to kick off the new school year. Tomorrow is another story. Hurricane days, (instead of snow days), were the best...for the first couple of days. By November you're relieved they are over.
8.17.2008
It Is Well With My Soul
Bika mono ve, mvulusi
mono ku lomba
bu nge vuluswa ba nkaka
bika mono ve
Yesu, yesu
mono ku lomba
bu nge vuluswa ba nkaka
bika mono ve
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Pass me not, o gentle Savior
Hear my humble cry.
While on others thou art calling
Do not pass me by.
Savior, Savior,
hear my humble cry
While on others thou art calling
do not pass me by.
8.14.2008
Workaholics
I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should
8.12.2008
UHS
Taran made me do it...
Did you date someo
Nope. I kept my relationships at other schools.
Did you marry
No!
Did you car pool to schoo
No, just me.
What kind of car did you have?
Toyota Tercel.
What kind of car do you have now?
Toyota Corolla.
It's Frida
Um...Probably at my boyfriend's house or with a bunch of friends somewhere.
It's frida
Around.
What kind of job did you have in high schoo
My job was to get good grades. I did work at Express during Christmas break but I guess that doesn't count.
What do you do now?
Bridal consultant for Macy*s.
Were you a party
I was social.
Were you consi
I was nice.
Were you in band,
Nope. German club and Yearbook staff!
Were you a nerd?
I am book smart.
Did you get suspe
Nope.
Can you sing the fight
Haha. I think I heard that song for the first time at Baccalaureate.
Who was/
I didn't pick favorites. I went to class, did the work, got the A and left. Although I would say the most inspriring class would be Mr. Klongerbough's 11th AP English. GREAT class! So challenging but fun! We read about the Salem Witch Trials...how ironic.
Where
Outside with friends at the bell tower in the commons.
What was your schoo
University High School.
When did you gradu
2002
What was your schoo
Cougar.
If you could
No. Too big. With 5,000 students you don't form true friendships.
Who was your Senio
For both schools it was my boyfriend at the time.
Did you have fun at Prom?
Eh. It was just another dance, another dress, another dinner, another gazillion pictures to take. The after party was better.
Do you still
Nope.
Are you plann
Sure, if they find out where I am!
8.09.2008
Happy Birthday Shelby!
Ok, ok, ok. I know this is way overdue....by like a week and a half but....happy birthday Shelby! I know you had an awesome birthday! Love you! See you and the rest of the fam in November!
Liars
One of my pet peeves, (I only have two. The other one being people who ditch you/no shows), are people that lie, and when you know they're lying just to try to come up with an explanation. The comical part is when I know when they're "embellishing" the truth. I think lying is a waste of time and breathe. Sometimes the truth hurts, however it settles better with your conscience when you know you have said the right thing. If everyone just thought before they talked things would go a lot smoother in this world. Don't get me wrong, I'm not talking about anyone in particular. I'm just expressing how I dislike liars. They loose my trust immediately. I'll be nice to them, as always, but I won't talk to them on a personal level, nor trust them in any retrospect. I have no patience for them at all. Life is too short to deal with people that have to insult your intelligence by telling you something they think you'll believe. Come on people, I may be a little flaky at times, but I'm not dumb. I may not confront you on your faults, but I am a good observer by your body language and can figure out the lies within your explanations. I may not even be mean to you, but I will be weary. You shouldn't be intimated by this at all just realize the facts. Ok, that's all.
The LORD detests lying lips,
but he delights in men who are truthful.
Proverbs 12.22
The LORD detests lying lips,
but he delights in men who are truthful.
Proverbs 12.22
Then go if you wanna go
But stay if you want to know the way
Through the mess we've made
Or lie in the bed you know or go
8.07.2008
Time Passes By
I can't believe we're hitting the 2nd week of August already. Wow. Tonight was fun. I tried a cob salad from a tasting Lynn restaurant and started chapters 1 and 2 of Sybil. Very cool.
7.31.2008
Night of Joy
You would think after growing up in Orlando I would have attended at least this at least one year! So deprived.
7.30.2008
Stupid Surveys from Myspace
A is for Age of first Kiss: 15- It was on lunch break between classes.
B is for booze of choice: Long Island Ice Tea.
C is for career: Slave? Oh no, bridal consultant.
D is for your dad's name: Tom
E is for essential items to bring to a party: a sense of humor.
F is for favorite song at the moment: When the Saints by Sara Groves
G is for favorite game: Alissa's "telephone" game. Does it even have a name?
H is for hometown: Orlando, FL.
I is for instruments you play: Piano. I used to be able to play clarinet.
J is for jam or jelly you like: Eh.
K is for kids?: Yup.
L is for last text message?: "Possibly. When would you have to know by?" -Amber.
M is for mom's name: Jean.
N is for name of your crush: My crush? I have a crush on Jim.
O is for overnight hospital stays: Once when I was 5 because I had a kidney infection.
P is for phobias: Frogs.
Q is for quotes you like: "If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were". - Kahlil Gibran
R is for relationship that lasted the longest: I think Jim is in the lead.
S is for sexual preference: I like men.
T is for time you wake up: Depends. Today I woke up at 10am.
U is for underwear: Yup. Always.
V is for vegetable you love: I'm beginning to enjoy a variety of them.
W is for worst habit: Assuming.
X is for x-rays you've had: Dental and MRI.
Y is for yummy food you make: I loooove chocolate chip cookies! Great comfort food.
Z is for zodiac sign: Scorpio... determined and forceful. Emotional and intuitive. Powerful and passionate. Exciting and magnetic.
B is for booze of choice: Long Island Ice Tea.
C is for career: Slave? Oh no, bridal consultant.
D is for your dad's name: Tom
E is for essential items to bring to a party: a sense of humor.
F is for favorite song at the moment: When the Saints by Sara Groves
G is for favorite game: Alissa's "telephone" game. Does it even have a name?
H is for hometown: Orlando, FL.
I is for instruments you play: Piano. I used to be able to play clarinet.
J is for jam or jelly you like: Eh.
K is for kids?: Yup.
L is for last text message?: "Possibly. When would you have to know by?" -Amber.
M is for mom's name: Jean.
N is for name of your crush: My crush? I have a crush on Jim.
O is for overnight hospital stays: Once when I was 5 because I had a kidney infection.
P is for phobias: Frogs.
Q is for quotes you like: "If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were". - Kahlil Gibran
R is for relationship that lasted the longest: I think Jim is in the lead.
S is for sexual preference: I like men.
T is for time you wake up: Depends. Today I woke up at 10am.
U is for underwear: Yup. Always.
V is for vegetable you love: I'm beginning to enjoy a variety of them.
W is for worst habit: Assuming.
X is for x-rays you've had: Dental and MRI.
Y is for yummy food you make: I loooove chocolate chip cookies! Great comfort food.
Z is for zodiac sign: Scorpio... determined and forceful. Emotional and intuitive. Powerful and passionate. Exciting and magnetic.
PMDD
I've been diagnosed with it. The medicine that I did take for it continuously gave me migraines. So I just have to deal with it. I don't normally advertise this, but it might explain my actions in the past two days even though it's a lame excuse. Sorry.
7.28.2008
Alex's 1st Birthday
I can't believe it's actually been a full year since our nephew has been born. Jim and I went up to VT this weekend to attend his birthday party. It was descent. Knowing how to plan events and party techniques I could've elaborated a little bit more, but this isn't my kid so I kept my mouth shut and just observed and enjoyed. Whenever I go to a wedding or a birthday party, I always try to collect mental tips that I can use in the future. Later that night, when the kid was asleep we watched Dejavu on demand. On demand is super cool. You just click on the movie and you can watch it anytime. Hence the name "demand." Imagine that! Oh, and the movie was super cool too.
On that note, off to work I go tomorrow!
On that note, off to work I go tomorrow!
7.25.2008
When The Saints
Lord I have a heavy burden of all I've seen and know
It's more than I can handle
But your word is burning like a fire shut up in my bones
and I cannot let it go
And when I'm weary and overwrought
with so many battles left unfought
I think of Paul and Silas in the prison yard
I hear their song of freedom rising to the stars
And when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them
Lord it's all that I can't carry and cannot leave behind
it often overwhelms me
but when I think of all who've gone before and lived the faithful life
their courage compells me
And when I'm weary and overwrought
with so many battles left unfought
I see the shepherd Moses in the Pharohs court
I hear his call for freedom for the people of the Lord
And when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them
And when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them
I see the long quiet walk along the Underground Railroad
I see the slave awakening to the value of her soul
I see the young missionary and the angry spear
I see his family returning with no trace of fear
I see the long hard shadows of Calcutta nights
I see the sisters standing by the dying man's side
I see the young girl huddled on the brothel floor
I see the man with a passion come and kicking down the door
I see the man of sorrows and his long troubled road
I see the world on his shoulders and my easy load
And when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them
and when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them
It's more than I can handle
But your word is burning like a fire shut up in my bones
and I cannot let it go
And when I'm weary and overwrought
with so many battles left unfought
I think of Paul and Silas in the prison yard
I hear their song of freedom rising to the stars
And when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them
Lord it's all that I can't carry and cannot leave behind
it often overwhelms me
but when I think of all who've gone before and lived the faithful life
their courage compells me
And when I'm weary and overwrought
with so many battles left unfought
I see the shepherd Moses in the Pharohs court
I hear his call for freedom for the people of the Lord
And when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them
And when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them
I see the long quiet walk along the Underground Railroad
I see the slave awakening to the value of her soul
I see the young missionary and the angry spear
I see his family returning with no trace of fear
I see the long hard shadows of Calcutta nights
I see the sisters standing by the dying man's side
I see the young girl huddled on the brothel floor
I see the man with a passion come and kicking down the door
I see the man of sorrows and his long troubled road
I see the world on his shoulders and my easy load
And when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them
and when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them
7.22.2008
It' Been Awhile
What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Water
Have you ever kissed anyone named Dave?
Yes.
Where was your default picture taken?
At Sheetz last summer in VA.
Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 20?
Kristen
Can you play guitar hero?
I'm sure I can.
Last time you walked further than a block?
This weekend in Boston.
Name someone that made you laugh today?
Jim
When was the last time you saw number 1 on your top friends?
Tonight
How late did you stay up last night and why?
12.30- because we got home late from seeing The Dark Knight.
If you could move somewhere else, would you?
I'm quite content.
Ever been kissed under fireworks?
Yes.
Which of your friends lives closest to you?
Alissa.
Do you believe ex's can be friends?
If they have to.
Do you prefer to call or text?
I like texting. It's fun to do at work. :)
How do you feel about Diet Dr Pepper?
I don't drink it.
When was the last time you cried really hard?
About a week ago when I became really stressed with work.
Where are you at right now?
In my bedroom.
What bed did you sleep in last night?
My own.
What was the last thing someone bought for you?
Jim bought me dinner. haha.
When is your birthday?
October 28th
Who took your profile picture?
I think Jim?
Who was the last person you took a picture of?
My sister asleep in the car going to the airport.
Was yesterday better than today?
Yes!
Can you live a day without TV?
Yup.
Are you mad about anything?
No :)
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
Sure why not. Just as long as you both agree they are.
Last time you spent the night at someone's house?
Friday night I spend the night at my mom and sister's hotel if that counts.
When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
The other day.
Are you a bad influence?
I hope not.
Night out or night in?
Depending on the weather.
Are you more of a quiet individual or an outgoing person?
I'm the social butterfly.
What items could you not go without during the day?
My cell phone.
Would you share a drink with a stranger?
Maybe? Probably not.
Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
I have no clue.
Last hug?
Jim.
Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
I don't like it.
Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
I can go for coffee liquor.
Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire?
Nope.
What does the last text message in your inbox say?
"Hi Erin- we made it back to Orlando and got home around 11pm. Love you and miss you!"-mom.
How do you feel about your life right now?
Itching.
How many times have you been pulled over by the police?
To get a ticket? Once.
Do you hate anyone?
Nope.
Did you have a Valentine?
Yup. Forever and for always.
Anyone upset you lately?
Yes.
Last person you talked to on the phone?
Some bride.
Can you easily tell if someone is fake?
Absolutely.
How's your heart?
Beating at a steady pace.
Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass?
Yes.
Water
Have you ever kissed anyone named Dave?
Yes.
Where was your default picture taken?
At Sheetz last summer in VA.
Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 20?
Kristen
Can you play guitar hero?
I'm sure I can.
Last time you walked further than a block?
This weekend in Boston.
Name someone that made you laugh today?
Jim
When was the last time you saw number 1 on your top friends?
Tonight
How late did you stay up last night and why?
12.30- because we got home late from seeing The Dark Knight.
If you could move somewhere else, would you?
I'm quite content.
Ever been kissed under fireworks?
Yes.
Which of your friends lives closest to you?
Alissa.
Do you believe ex's can be friends?
If they have to.
Do you prefer to call or text?
I like texting. It's fun to do at work. :)
How do you feel about Diet Dr Pepper?
I don't drink it.
When was the last time you cried really hard?
About a week ago when I became really stressed with work.
Where are you at right now?
In my bedroom.
What bed did you sleep in last night?
My own.
What was the last thing someone bought for you?
Jim bought me dinner. haha.
When is your birthday?
October 28th
Who took your profile picture?
I think Jim?
Who was the last person you took a picture of?
My sister asleep in the car going to the airport.
Was yesterday better than today?
Yes!
Can you live a day without TV?
Yup.
Are you mad about anything?
No :)
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
Sure why not. Just as long as you both agree they are.
Last time you spent the night at someone's house?
Friday night I spend the night at my mom and sister's hotel if that counts.
When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
The other day.
Are you a bad influence?
I hope not.
Night out or night in?
Depending on the weather.
Are you more of a quiet individual or an outgoing person?
I'm the social butterfly.
What items could you not go without during the day?
My cell phone.
Would you share a drink with a stranger?
Maybe? Probably not.
Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
I have no clue.
Last hug?
Jim.
Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
I don't like it.
Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
I can go for coffee liquor.
Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire?
Nope.
What does the last text message in your inbox say?
"Hi Erin- we made it back to Orlando and got home around 11pm. Love you and miss you!"-mom.
How do you feel about your life right now?
Itching.
How many times have you been pulled over by the police?
To get a ticket? Once.
Do you hate anyone?
Nope.
Did you have a Valentine?
Yup. Forever and for always.
Anyone upset you lately?
Yes.
Last person you talked to on the phone?
Some bride.
Can you easily tell if someone is fake?
Absolutely.
How's your heart?
Beating at a steady pace.
Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass?
Yes.
7.13.2008
Wild Wild West
I have to compliment the stockroom people at work. Each morning when I arrive at work, they're working hard...with the best music ever! Whoever makes their mix CDs really needs to make me a copy for me. I mean, we all need some pumped up music if we're going to be in the dark for an hour before the store opens. Maybe not, I already get distracted by dancing with them while getting ready for the day anyway. Here's a prime example of one of their great picks. I haven't heard this song in ten years and immediately it was stuck in my head all day. The video is a little strange, and the context of the lyrics are a little vulgar, but it has a great beat!!!
7.11.2008
School Answering Machine
This is hilarious - no wonder some people were offended! This is the message that the Pacific Palisades High School California staff voted unanimously to record on their school telephone answering machine.
This is the actual answering machine message for the school. This came about because they implemented a policy requiring students and parents to be responsible for their children's absences and missing homework.
The school and teachers are being sued by parents who want their children's failing grades changed to passing grades - even though those children were absent 15-30 times during the semester and did not complete enough school work to pass their classes.
The outgoing message:
Hello! You have reached the automated answering service of your school. In order to assist you in connecting to the right staff member, please listen to all the options before making a selection:
To lie about why your child is absent - Press 1
To make excuses for why your child did not do
his work -Press 2
To complain about what we do - Press 3
To swear at staff members - Press 4
To ask why you didn't get information that was already enclosed in your newsletter and several flyers mailed to you - Press 5
If you want us to raise your child - Press 6
If you want to reach out and touch, slap or hit someone - Press 7
To request another teacher, for the third time this year - Press 8
To complain about bus transportation - Press 9
To complain about school lunches - Press 0
If you realize this is the real world and your child must be accountable and responsible for his/her own behavior, class work, homework and that it's not the teachers' fault for your child's lack of effort: Hang up and have a nice day!
If you want this in Spanish, move to a country that speaks it
This is the actual answering machine message for the school. This came about because they implemented a policy requiring students and parents to be responsible for their children's absences and missing homework.
The school and teachers are being sued by parents who want their children's failing grades changed to passing grades - even though those children were absent 15-30 times during the semester and did not complete enough school work to pass their classes.
The outgoing message:
Hello! You have reached the automated answering service of your school. In order to assist you in connecting to the right staff member, please listen to all the options before making a selection:
To lie about why your child is absent - Press 1
To make excuses for why your child did not do
his work -Press 2
To complain about what we do - Press 3
To swear at staff members - Press 4
To ask why you didn't get information that was already enclosed in your newsletter and several flyers mailed to you - Press 5
If you want us to raise your child - Press 6
If you want to reach out and touch, slap or hit someone - Press 7
To request another teacher, for the third time this year - Press 8
To complain about bus transportation - Press 9
To complain about school lunches - Press 0
If you realize this is the real world and your child must be accountable and responsible for his/her own behavior, class work, homework and that it's not the teachers' fault for your child's lack of effort: Hang up and have a nice day!
If you want this in Spanish, move to a country that speaks it
7.08.2008
Humanly Hate
I'll admit it: I'm stubborn. Too independent. Has to finish what I start. Perfectionist. Put all that together in a typical A personality and let the emotions run wild. So when something irks me, it irks me for a long time.
God tells us not to hate. Love our neighbor. Keep our friends close, and our enemies closer. Blah blah blah. However, when it comes to one person in particular, I will always hatred towards him. I have tried to like him. I've even tried to welcome him into the family in the beginning. I have tried to the 5th degree but it just didn't work. My grandmother's second husband came into our lives like a huge whirlwind and took over our family before we could even introduce ourselves. He was manipulative from the gecko, and didn't stop there with the possessiveness he had for her. For everyone that doesn't know him will never understand how I feel. I'm not the hating type. I dislike people. Everyone does. And when you do, you just try to avoid them. You can't avoid someone when they're married into your family with that I will never call him family.
He controlled her. Spit on us. Manipulated others. Told lies about me and my sister. Talked about how great his first wife was all the time. Shall I go on? He passed away in the summer of 1999 and we sighed with relief that we might be able to put this chapter behind us. Not so fast. His children also hated my grandmother and wanted to make her life a living hell.
Almost ten years after his death, this battle is still going strong. His daughter has deserted an elderly lady of her spendings by not supporting her with the money her father left behind. How cruel, selfish, bitchy, and self centered can one person be? It hurts me to see my grandmother living this way. She tells me not to worry, but I do. "It's called faith, Erin." my she said to me yesterday afternoon. "I've lived 85 years. Through wars, deaths and other unfortunate times, but everything seems to work out in the end." Ok, so tell me: When does it end with him? He passed away a decade ago but his children are still abusing her. When will they go away?
I've tried to ask God to heal my heart about the hate I have for him. I even tried to forgive him. After all, everyone deserves a second chance. I can't. I've come to the conclusion that as long as I am living I will hate him more and more each day. I'm not going to make it my goal, but that is how my feelings for him will grow. For the past 12 years, since I was introduced to him my skin has always crawled with discuss whenever someone has mentioned his name, or worse, when I come across a picture of the two of them. My grandmother will always be right. We all need faith. We all need love. We all need hope. Hope that his children will be punished for their actions.
I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
God tells us not to hate. Love our neighbor. Keep our friends close, and our enemies closer. Blah blah blah. However, when it comes to one person in particular, I will always hatred towards him. I have tried to like him. I've even tried to welcome him into the family in the beginning. I have tried to the 5th degree but it just didn't work. My grandmother's second husband came into our lives like a huge whirlwind and took over our family before we could even introduce ourselves. He was manipulative from the gecko, and didn't stop there with the possessiveness he had for her. For everyone that doesn't know him will never understand how I feel. I'm not the hating type. I dislike people. Everyone does. And when you do, you just try to avoid them. You can't avoid someone when they're married into your family with that I will never call him family.
He controlled her. Spit on us. Manipulated others. Told lies about me and my sister. Talked about how great his first wife was all the time. Shall I go on? He passed away in the summer of 1999 and we sighed with relief that we might be able to put this chapter behind us. Not so fast. His children also hated my grandmother and wanted to make her life a living hell.
Almost ten years after his death, this battle is still going strong. His daughter has deserted an elderly lady of her spendings by not supporting her with the money her father left behind. How cruel, selfish, bitchy, and self centered can one person be? It hurts me to see my grandmother living this way. She tells me not to worry, but I do. "It's called faith, Erin." my she said to me yesterday afternoon. "I've lived 85 years. Through wars, deaths and other unfortunate times, but everything seems to work out in the end." Ok, so tell me: When does it end with him? He passed away a decade ago but his children are still abusing her. When will they go away?
I've tried to ask God to heal my heart about the hate I have for him. I even tried to forgive him. After all, everyone deserves a second chance. I can't. I've come to the conclusion that as long as I am living I will hate him more and more each day. I'm not going to make it my goal, but that is how my feelings for him will grow. For the past 12 years, since I was introduced to him my skin has always crawled with discuss whenever someone has mentioned his name, or worse, when I come across a picture of the two of them. My grandmother will always be right. We all need faith. We all need love. We all need hope. Hope that his children will be punished for their actions.
I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
7.04.2008
Home of the Brave
Take a minute to visulize Freancis Scott Key writing this legandary song, (that became our official anthem in 1931) out on a boat looking over the battles of Fort Henry during the war of 1812.
When I was in grade school we had to memorize the whole song. Read the lyrics. They're pretty deep. What a genius.
Oh, say can you see by the dawn's early light
What so proudly we hailed at the twilight's last gleaming?
Whose broad stripes and bright stars thru the perilous fight,
O'er the ramparts we watched were so gallantly streaming?
And the rocket's red glare, the bombs bursting in air,
Gave proof through the night that our flag was still there.
Oh, say does that star-spangled banner yet wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave?
On the shore, dimly seen through the mists of the deep,
Where the foe's haughty host in dread silence reposes,
What is that which the breeze, o'er the towering steep,
As it fitfully blows, half conceals, half discloses?
Now it catches the gleam of the morning's first beam,
In full glory reflected now shines in the stream:
'Tis the star-spangled banner! Oh long may it wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave!
And where is that band who so vauntingly swore
That the havoc of war and the battle's confusion,
A home and a country should leave us no more!
Their blood has washed out their foul footsteps' pollution.
No refuge could save the hireling and slave
From the terror of flight, or the gloom of the grave:
And the star-spangled banner in triumph doth wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave!
Oh! thus be it ever, when freemen shall stand
Between their loved home and the war's desolation!
Blest with victory and peace, may the heav'n rescued land
Praise the Power that hath made and preserved us a nation.
Then conquer we must, when our cause it is just,
And this be our motto: "In God is our trust."
And the star-spangled banner in triumph shall wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave!
When I was in grade school we had to memorize the whole song. Read the lyrics. They're pretty deep. What a genius.
Oh, say can you see by the dawn's early light
What so proudly we hailed at the twilight's last gleaming?
Whose broad stripes and bright stars thru the perilous fight,
O'er the ramparts we watched were so gallantly streaming?
And the rocket's red glare, the bombs bursting in air,
Gave proof through the night that our flag was still there.
Oh, say does that star-spangled banner yet wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave?
On the shore, dimly seen through the mists of the deep,
Where the foe's haughty host in dread silence reposes,
What is that which the breeze, o'er the towering steep,
As it fitfully blows, half conceals, half discloses?
Now it catches the gleam of the morning's first beam,
In full glory reflected now shines in the stream:
'Tis the star-spangled banner! Oh long may it wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave!
And where is that band who so vauntingly swore
That the havoc of war and the battle's confusion,
A home and a country should leave us no more!
Their blood has washed out their foul footsteps' pollution.
No refuge could save the hireling and slave
From the terror of flight, or the gloom of the grave:
And the star-spangled banner in triumph doth wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave!
Oh! thus be it ever, when freemen shall stand
Between their loved home and the war's desolation!
Blest with victory and peace, may the heav'n rescued land
Praise the Power that hath made and preserved us a nation.
Then conquer we must, when our cause it is just,
And this be our motto: "In God is our trust."
And the star-spangled banner in triumph shall wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave!
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6.28.2008
Boot n Scootin
I got a good job, I work hard for my money.
When it's quittin' time, I hit the door running.
I fire up my pick-up truck, and let the horses run.
I go flyin' down that highway to that hideaway,
stuck out in the woods to do the boot scoot boogie.
When it's quittin' time, I hit the door running.
I fire up my pick-up truck, and let the horses run.
I go flyin' down that highway to that hideaway,
stuck out in the woods to do the boot scoot boogie.
6.27.2008
The Controversial Survey
1. Would you do meth if it was legalized?
No way.
2. Abortion: for or against?
Against it. 110%.
3. A 2 month old child and a 65 year old man who has the cure for
cancer but hasn't had a chance to announce it yet, one of them has
to die...who should survive?
This question is worded so horribly. I don't like playing God.
4. Would our country fall with a woman president?
It depends on the woman. All and all, I think we would be fine.
5. Do you believe in the death penalty?
Absolutely.
6. Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?
Not really.
7. Do you believe in God?
Yes.
8. Do you think its wrong that so many Hispanics are moving to the USA?
No, it's a free country.
9. A 12 year old girl has a baby... should she keep it?
It really depends on her support system. If she doesn't have a balanced support system for the baby, then the only fair thing to do for the baby would be to give it up for adoption.
10. Should the alcohol age be lowered to 18?
No. I think it was changed to 21 for a reason.
11. Should the war in Iraq be called off?
Something needs to change.
12. Assisted suicide is illegal...do you agree?
A painless, but an illegal death that you're committing on yourself. Playing God scares me.
13. Do you believe in spanking your children?
I believe you need to be consistent with your punishments to your children. If spanking them makes them learn their lesson, do it the minute they misbehave. Don't wait until later. I was spanked. I think I turned out OK.
14. Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?
Not for TEN million dollars.
15. A mother is declared innocent after murdering her 5 children in a temporary insanity case...what do you think?
I think everyone has some common sense to know the difference between right and wrong and what their actions are. This is just a lame excuse. I think that her sin will be its own punishment.
16.
It's between you and a person who is being kept alive by life support
machines...one has to die? Who?
I don't ever want to be kept alive by a machine. Please pull the plug and let me live in peace.
17.Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
Not afraid, but I do acknowledge it's going to happen.
No way.
2. Abortion: for or against?
Against it. 110%.
3. A 2 month old child and a 65 year old man who has the cure for
cancer but hasn't had a chance to announce it yet, one of them has
to die...who should survive?
This question is worded so horribly. I don't like playing God.
4. Would our country fall with a woman president?
It depends on the woman. All and all, I think we would be fine.
5. Do you believe in the death penalty?
Absolutely.
6. Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?
Not really.
7. Do you believe in God?
Yes.
8. Do you think its wrong that so many Hispanics are moving to the USA?
No, it's a free country.
9. A 12 year old girl has a baby... should she keep it?
It really depends on her support system. If she doesn't have a balanced support system for the baby, then the only fair thing to do for the baby would be to give it up for adoption.
10. Should the alcohol age be lowered to 18?
No. I think it was changed to 21 for a reason.
11. Should the war in Iraq be called off?
Something needs to change.
12. Assisted suicide is illegal...do you agree?
A painless, but an illegal death that you're committing on yourself. Playing God scares me.
13. Do you believe in spanking your children?
I believe you need to be consistent with your punishments to your children. If spanking them makes them learn their lesson, do it the minute they misbehave. Don't wait until later. I was spanked. I think I turned out OK.
14. Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?
Not for TEN million dollars.
15. A mother is declared innocent after murdering her 5 children in a temporary insanity case...what do you think?
I think everyone has some common sense to know the difference between right and wrong and what their actions are. This is just a lame excuse. I think that her sin will be its own punishment.
16.
It's between you and a person who is being kept alive by life support
machines...one has to die? Who?
I don't ever want to be kept alive by a machine. Please pull the plug and let me live in peace.
17.Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
Not afraid, but I do acknowledge it's going to happen.
6.22.2008
WII
I just learned I kick you know what at bowling on the Wii. Strikes all around. (So close to a turkey) Score: 202 from 134. I think that's an improvement.
Your Secret is Safe With Me
Have you ever gotten that gut feeling, the one you want to ignore because you know it's always right? I've had it all week. Have you ever felt like people don't tell you obvious things because they think it might hurt you and so you pretend to go along with their petty little game? I've also had this feeling all week too. Get a life people. Sometimes the truth hurts. On that note, I think I have turned into a cold hearted bitch. Like anyone cares.
6.20.2008
6.19.2008
Trust
Remember that game in elementary school that we all played during recess called the Trust Game? I never could do it. I could never trust anyone to catch me. I always ended up giving in because I wanted my participation points, but the fear of having no one to trust rattled my mind every time.
Just because you do not trust someone does not mean you can not be civilized to them. I have been battling this on going issue with myself for the past couple of weeks. You will always get more honey then vinegar. I mean, some say there's no connection if the other person can not learn to trust....again. There is. It is just limited. You can always be weary, especially if you have had encounters with that particular person before. Or you can chose to just not have them in your life. If they mean something to you, then this would be hard to do. But what's it worth- having to always question whether or not you are going to loose their confidence again or just not having to worry about it at all? That is up to me to decide. I have learned from other mistakes that you are the only person you can trust and sometimes that is hard. Let's be honest. We all lie to ourselves to make ourselves feel better.
-"Oh I can have that candy bar because I just ran a mile."
-"I did only spend $10.00. Tax was just added."
-"Nobody will read this if I just write it to myself."
How stupid can we get? Lying to ourselves to make ourselves feel better if just pathetic. Why do we do it? On that note, why do we lie to others? Why do we brake another's person's trust? Sure, we don't do it intentially, but it happens. Shit happens. Life goes on. This will always be a mystery to me.
Just because you do not trust someone does not mean you can not be civilized to them. I have been battling this on going issue with myself for the past couple of weeks. You will always get more honey then vinegar. I mean, some say there's no connection if the other person can not learn to trust....again. There is. It is just limited. You can always be weary, especially if you have had encounters with that particular person before. Or you can chose to just not have them in your life. If they mean something to you, then this would be hard to do. But what's it worth- having to always question whether or not you are going to loose their confidence again or just not having to worry about it at all? That is up to me to decide. I have learned from other mistakes that you are the only person you can trust and sometimes that is hard. Let's be honest. We all lie to ourselves to make ourselves feel better.
-"Oh I can have that candy bar because I just ran a mile."
-"I did only spend $10.00. Tax was just added."
-"Nobody will read this if I just write it to myself."
How stupid can we get? Lying to ourselves to make ourselves feel better if just pathetic. Why do we do it? On that note, why do we lie to others? Why do we brake another's person's trust? Sure, we don't do it intentially, but it happens. Shit happens. Life goes on. This will always be a mystery to me.
6.18.2008
6.15.2008
When God Fearin Women Get The Blues
While I was in New York last weekend I shared a hotel room with my mom, sister, my mom's friend Cathie and her daughter Shelby who's also involved in Girl Scouts. It was fun. Especially in the morning when we were all trying to get ready for our big activities for the day. The hotel provided us with an Ipod alarm clock. So we jammed to our favorite tunes. The best was an oldie but a goodie. Martina McBride will always be on my top five list.
Lock up your husbands
Lock up your sons
Lock up your whiskey cabinets
Girls lock up your guns
And Lock up the beauty shop
No tellin if they've heard the news
Call the boys downtown and Neiman Marcus
Tell Em' lock them high heeled shoes
When God fearin' women get the blues
There ain't no slap down a tellin what they're gonna do
Run around yellin
I've got a mustang it'll do 80
You don't have to be my baby
I stirred my last batch of gravy
You don't have to be my, be my, be my baby
Call all the deacons
Call the ladies aid
Call all the altos, sopranos
Tenors call every bass
Well call all the Pentecostals
And bring all the anointing oil too
Well call the preacher
He's the only one who can reach her
And there ain't no time to lose
Lock up your husbands
Lock up your sons
Lock up your whiskey cabinets
Girls lock up your guns
And Lock up the beauty shop
No tellin if they've heard the news
Call the boys downtown and Neiman Marcus
Tell Em' lock them high heeled shoes
When God fearin' women get the blues
There ain't no slap down a tellin what they're gonna do
Run around yellin
I've got a mustang it'll do 80
You don't have to be my baby
I stirred my last batch of gravy
You don't have to be my, be my, be my baby
Call all the deacons
Call the ladies aid
Call all the altos, sopranos
Tenors call every bass
Well call all the Pentecostals
And bring all the anointing oil too
Well call the preacher
He's the only one who can reach her
And there ain't no time to lose
6.10.2008
New York City
Without further ado, my adventure to the City that never sleeps... trust me, it doesn't...
Saturday, June 7th I got the guts to explore the Chinatown bus that drives just to New York and Boston. $30.00 round trip isn't something to complain about. There was nothing exciting about the bus. I texted, read, and listened to my Nano for three and a half hours. When we finally arrived in Chinatown New York, I was left to fend for my self in the suburbs of the city. My first mission: getting a taxi. I walked and followed everyone else. When they put their hand in the air to wave one down, so did I. Apparently your arm is a very powerful force to taxi drivers. Later on during my trip I actually learned that when the taxi's cab light is on he's on duty. When it's off, he's off duty. Maybe that's why it took me awhile to get one.
Sunday, June 8th I awoke from sleeping on the floor at the Waldorf hotel. I was bunking in with my mom, sister, Shelby, and Cathie, our neighbors across the street who are also in Girl Scouts. We had to be at breakfast at 8am. This meant for five girls we had some serious hustling to do in the morning. This wasn't the first time all of us had bunked together. We should be pros at this by now with eleven years of Girl Scout trips behind us.
After breakfast we took a walk to the MET. From the Renaissance era, to the 19-20th impressionists I really enjoyed it. This best part was the observation deck which overlooked the entire city. Although it was triple digits outside, it still completely took my breath away.
The girls had tickets to go see Grease on Broadway so I took a cab back to the hotel to freshen up for dinner. During this time there was a Puerto Rican parade that approximately 2 millionm people were attending. My cab driver told me he could only take me a couple of blocks and then I would have to walk. Walking was great. I was able to take pictures of Radio City and the NBC studio. I might have been in the parade once or twice from trying to get from one sidewalk to the next.
Sunday night our group went to the infamous Bobby Flays Mesa Grill. It was outstanding. Incredible food, and liquor. The Girl Scout leader bought all the adults tequila drinks. This gave us the extra boost to explore Time Square afterwards. When I say this city doesn't sleep, it really doesn't. Here it is on a Sunday night and everything is open like it's a random Tuesday. It still ceases to amaze me when reminiscing on my walk down 3th street.
Monday, June 8th came as we had to meet up at 7.00am. Making our way down Park Ave, and then heading towards 5th Ave, you really try to get a sense of how people actually live in the city. The cabs, the trends, the lack of communication. It's a completely different world. As we hiked 10 blocks we arrived at Rockefeller Center where the Today Show was being taped live. I will always be a journalist at heart so this touched home for me. We didn't see any of the cast outside, but it was truly amazing to get a glimpse through the windows and see the lights and cameras. We had a little time to spare so my mom tugged at my arm to guide me in the direction of Fox News and to see if Fox and Friends were taping their morning show. She was lucky enough to not only be on Fox and Friends, but to sip blueberry martinis with the meteorologist last summer when she my dad, and the Jones visited New York. However on my morning I didn't have much luck, but it was a great experience to see their studio as well.
Rockefeller Center was followed by a 9.00am tour of the NBC studio. This was out of this world. We got to see the set of Cohen, SNL and Brian Williams. The Scouts also volunteered my for an audience participation skit where I had to read a teleprompter. Wow, this really took me back to my days interning at NBC in Orlando. How ironic.
When the tour was over we ran all over the gift shop like tourists do grabbing little knick knacks here and there. We can impersonate tourists really well because we see them everyday in Orlando. However, we didn't have the fanny backs or the British accents.
Our next stop for the day was Madaam Toussauds. This place is mandatory for all visitors to go through when they're in the city. I haven't laughed, screamed, or had the time of my life like we did in this wax museum in a really long time. By the end of the tour you have a hard time depicting who's waxed and who isn't.
For lunch we went to a well-known fab favorite for all the stars, Serendipity 3. It was fun. Frozen hot chocolate drinks and chicken salad sandwiches. Very chic.
By then, I knew my trip was coming to an end so all fourteen of us headed to the hotel to relax. Although first stopping in the worlds largest store, Macy*s at Herald Square. It was a treat to see how their bridal department differed from our's. I gathered up my belongings at the hotel and flagged down a taxi, (which by now I have become a true expert) and headed off into the sunset in the direction of Chinatown and wished them a wonderful time at Top of the Rock that night.
I can rave about New York all I want because I don't live there, and I wouldn't want to live there. Their drivers are insane, their accents are horrendous, and their sales tax is at 11%. But damn, it's a great place to visit!
6.07.2008
A Week From Hell...
...That I don't want to repeat...ever.
And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.
And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.
6.06.2008
It's Hurricane Season!
I like to think of myself as a true Floridian at heart. June 1st started the season.
1. Home Depot had it's annual ritual.
2. Drum roll please for the official 2008 hurricane names....
3. Let's predict how long my parents can stay boarded up with no AC, in the 90 plus degree heat and no electricity. And when they are given these luxuries they get word another storm is on it's way which will end up being a habitual routine over the next four months. (I think it sounds like I've been through this experience more than once).... sounds like a fun filled Florida summer to me!
1. Home Depot had it's annual ritual.
2. Drum roll please for the official 2008 hurricane names....
3. Let's predict how long my parents can stay boarded up with no AC, in the 90 plus degree heat and no electricity. And when they are given these luxuries they get word another storm is on it's way which will end up being a habitual routine over the next four months. (I think it sounds like I've been through this experience more than once).... sounds like a fun filled Florida summer to me!
6.05.2008
A Grandmother's Wisdom
My Granny called me earlier this morning to see how I was doing. She told me something that I haven't heard in awhile and needed to hear:
"Erin, all your strength and wisdom comes from God and no one else. He will give it to you, you just have to ask. Us Fultons are tough women! Everything always ends OK."
This is coming from the lady that got married at age nineteen and then didn't see her husband for two years while he was off at war. They were married fifty plus years. This is the lady that has out lived two husbands, a serious beau and all her siblings. She stands on what she believes in because at eighty-five years old you know things will work out and you have to be strong. You can't just give up and, "fall a part" as she refers to me when I'm in the middle of a crisis. What a very wise woman.
I thought that was pretty cool.
"Erin, all your strength and wisdom comes from God and no one else. He will give it to you, you just have to ask. Us Fultons are tough women! Everything always ends OK."
This is coming from the lady that got married at age nineteen and then didn't see her husband for two years while he was off at war. They were married fifty plus years. This is the lady that has out lived two husbands, a serious beau and all her siblings. She stands on what she believes in because at eighty-five years old you know things will work out and you have to be strong. You can't just give up and, "fall a part" as she refers to me when I'm in the middle of a crisis. What a very wise woman.
I thought that was pretty cool.
6.03.2008
Blue Sky
With all the hurt and betrayal I have felt within the past twenty-four hours, and trying to go to work and acting like nothing is wrong, (apparently I'm a horrible liar because wearing sunglasses inside to cover up tears isn't obvious), I heard this song over the intercom and understood it perfectly.
I'm blind with eyes wide open
My body's tired and broken
I want a taste of something, that doesn't leave me dry
This hope for answered questions
As rare as true conviction
I stare into the distance, there is no truth in sight
Who can tell me why
Everybody's looking for a blue sky
Searching for an answer on a satellite
I know that there's got to be a blue sky out there to see
A blue sky waiting for me
In the past twenty-four years of my life I have only been hurt, I mean really hurt just once where I have felt used, completely dirty, and to the point where I thought I was damage goods. This situation that I'm dealing with at the moment tops that tens times more. Yes, I might contradict myself after I say this but I have forgiven the person, or people for that matter and I'm not holding a grudge. However, feelings can not just go away because you have a big "talk." I realize I'm the only one that can control my emotions, but sometimes people really do impair your feelings to the point where whenever you see them you're reminded of how they wounded your heart so much. And that really sucks because for a moment I thought they actually cared about me, because I cared deeply for them. All I can say is time is an essence. And if it's worth it, it will heal. And if it's really worth it, an outcome will be resolved. That's if both parties are willing.
I'm blind with eyes wide open
My body's tired and broken
I want a taste of something, that doesn't leave me dry
This hope for answered questions
As rare as true conviction
I stare into the distance, there is no truth in sight
Who can tell me why
Everybody's looking for a blue sky
Searching for an answer on a satellite
I know that there's got to be a blue sky out there to see
A blue sky waiting for me
In the past twenty-four years of my life I have only been hurt, I mean really hurt just once where I have felt used, completely dirty, and to the point where I thought I was damage goods. This situation that I'm dealing with at the moment tops that tens times more. Yes, I might contradict myself after I say this but I have forgiven the person, or people for that matter and I'm not holding a grudge. However, feelings can not just go away because you have a big "talk." I realize I'm the only one that can control my emotions, but sometimes people really do impair your feelings to the point where whenever you see them you're reminded of how they wounded your heart so much. And that really sucks because for a moment I thought they actually cared about me, because I cared deeply for them. All I can say is time is an essence. And if it's worth it, it will heal. And if it's really worth it, an outcome will be resolved. That's if both parties are willing.
6.01.2008
5.31.2008
Thoughts
I had another "what if" moment tonight. Actually the same one. Can the person that keeps telling me (actually jokingly because it's in good humor in a very distorted perception) stop reading my mind? Thank you. You know who you are.
5.28.2008
Loss
We all dread those phone calls when the person on the other end says, "listen, I have to talk to you about a few things." We immediately know something is terribly wrong. We know she's in heaven now.
Pass me not, o gentle Savior
Hear my humble cry.
While on others thou art calling
Do not pass me by.
Savior, Savior, hear my humble cry
While on others thou art calling do not pass me by.
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Pass me not, o gentle Savior
Hear my humble cry.
While on others thou art calling
Do not pass me by.
Savior, Savior, hear my humble cry
While on others thou art calling do not pass me by.
When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blessed assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
5.27.2008
Should've Would've Could've
Do you ever have those moments when you think about something or someone and wonder how your life would be different if you chose different paths along the way? I think we've all had those moments whether they are short lived or will haunt us for the rest of our living lives. Here's an analogy:
Person A likes Person B
Person B starts to notice Person C.
Person A and C are completely oblivious to Person B's feelings.
OR
Person A gets offered a job at Destination B
Destination C offers more than Destination B.
Person A picks Destination C but always wonders how life would've turned out at Destination B.
Is this wrong? I mean, don't you think life is too short to just "what if" all the time?
I had a "what if" moment this past weekend. It was extremely off the charts when a friend brought up the whole ideal to me this morning without me even mentioning it to them. I'm not going to go into full detail about it either, "don't write anything you want the whole world to see" is what my grandmother always told me growing up and I still ably by that rule to this day especially when it comes to the Internet. Yes, sometimes I will slip up and just vent but most of the time I do keep a lot of things to myself. Maybe I'll tell a close friend but that's slim pickings too.
The question now is do I take my own advice and act on my thoughts or just let it rest? Someone once said,
"If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were."
Good call.
Person A likes Person B
Person B starts to notice Person C.
Person A and C are completely oblivious to Person B's feelings.
OR
Person A gets offered a job at Destination B
Destination C offers more than Destination B.
Person A picks Destination C but always wonders how life would've turned out at Destination B.
Is this wrong? I mean, don't you think life is too short to just "what if" all the time?
I had a "what if" moment this past weekend. It was extremely off the charts when a friend brought up the whole ideal to me this morning without me even mentioning it to them. I'm not going to go into full detail about it either, "don't write anything you want the whole world to see" is what my grandmother always told me growing up and I still ably by that rule to this day especially when it comes to the Internet. Yes, sometimes I will slip up and just vent but most of the time I do keep a lot of things to myself. Maybe I'll tell a close friend but that's slim pickings too.
The question now is do I take my own advice and act on my thoughts or just let it rest? Someone once said,
"If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were."
Good call.
5.26.2008
How Great Thou Art
A lot of us tend to forget this part of the song. Read, think and comprehend it people. It's pretty rad.
And when I think, that God, His Son not sparing;
Sent Him to die, I scarce can take it in;
That on the Cross, my burden gladly bearing,
He bled and died to take away my sin.
And when I think, that God, His Son not sparing;
Sent Him to die, I scarce can take it in;
That on the Cross, my burden gladly bearing,
He bled and died to take away my sin.
5.24.2008
5.21.2008
Team David!
It's double D Day on American Idol tonight. Which David will win? I like them both. Neither have ever been in the bottom three which is extremely impressive. Cook, 25, is more versatile in the song choices he sings as shown from last night, however Archie, 17 works the crowd. I think he'll win. I didn't vote this year because I could not decide between the two. I think they are both awesome!
5.14.2008
Line Dancing
Ever since those summertime days in Vermont back between the ages of 6-11 when my mom would take me to go line dancing with her I have been truly addicted. Tonight Jim and I are meeting Amber and her mom at Jesse Blacks for some dancin! I can hardly wait!
This one was my all time favorite to dance to, and the first one I was introduced to by my uncle.
Yeah, heel, toe, docie doe come on baby let's go boot scootin
Cadilac black jack, baby meet me outback we're gonna boogie
Oh get down, turn around go to town boot scootin' boogie
This one was my all time favorite to dance to, and the first one I was introduced to by my uncle.
Yeah, heel, toe, docie doe come on baby let's go boot scootin
Cadilac black jack, baby meet me outback we're gonna boogie
Oh get down, turn around go to town boot scootin' boogie
5.13.2008
It's a Negative
The neurologist called me today with my MRI results. After analyzing the X-rays they fortunately found nothing harmful . This is a true lift off my shoulders. However, he does want me to come in for a follow up appointment which will take place in July. He believes that if there was nothing that the x-rays showed, then there could possibly be a pinched nerve due to my scoliosis which evedentally causes migraines. This could lead to neck soreness or cramping.
I just want to thank everyone who has been giving me such great support this past week. Your words of affirmation, phone calls and hugs truly mean a lot. Inside I have been a complete basket case with this whole scenario by going off on catastrophic thoughts, but I can pretty much hide any emotion I have from the public. I know I really should start expressing my feelings, thoughts and opinions more often but I feel like it would be just a waist of time if no one would agree with them. Even the biggest thing like this I have showed no tears to anyone...except Jim. He's just a given. So, now you know: if I cry in front of you, you know you mean a lot to me.
Our vacation down in Florida has been going very smoothly. Jim and I went to Cocoa today. Visited Ron Jon's, I got burnt to a crisp and got up close and personal to those estranged wild fires that have been making national news. Florida is burning up good times. I95 was closed, however being a born Floridian I knew all the back roads that took us home from the beach. I went to a pilates class with Amber, my mom and sister tonight and Jim and I are meeting up with her tomorrow at Jessie's bar for some good ole line dancing! Yee-haw. Disney is in the works for Thursday. Oh boy.
On the contrary, my family is in the midst of forming a family reunion, (which my aunt and I have been trying to push for the past SIX years). A suggestion of taking a cruise over Turkey Day since it'll be my cousin's birthday was going around. I guess I should start putting my event planning skills to the test!
I just want to thank everyone who has been giving me such great support this past week. Your words of affirmation, phone calls and hugs truly mean a lot. Inside I have been a complete basket case with this whole scenario by going off on catastrophic thoughts, but I can pretty much hide any emotion I have from the public. I know I really should start expressing my feelings, thoughts and opinions more often but I feel like it would be just a waist of time if no one would agree with them. Even the biggest thing like this I have showed no tears to anyone...except Jim. He's just a given. So, now you know: if I cry in front of you, you know you mean a lot to me.
Our vacation down in Florida has been going very smoothly. Jim and I went to Cocoa today. Visited Ron Jon's, I got burnt to a crisp and got up close and personal to those estranged wild fires that have been making national news. Florida is burning up good times. I95 was closed, however being a born Floridian I knew all the back roads that took us home from the beach. I went to a pilates class with Amber, my mom and sister tonight and Jim and I are meeting up with her tomorrow at Jessie's bar for some good ole line dancing! Yee-haw. Disney is in the works for Thursday. Oh boy.
On the contrary, my family is in the midst of forming a family reunion, (which my aunt and I have been trying to push for the past SIX years). A suggestion of taking a cruise over Turkey Day since it'll be my cousin's birthday was going around. I guess I should start putting my event planning skills to the test!
5.12.2008
You're a Heatbreaker
He wore that cowboy hat to cover up his horns.
Sweet-talkin' forked tongue haf a temptin' charm.
Before I turned around, that boy was gone.
All I can say is: "Bartender, pour me somethin' strong."
Here's to the past, they can kiss my glass.
I hope he's happy with her.
Here's to the boy, who wrecked my world,
That angel who did me in.
I think the devil drives a Coupe de Ville.
I watched 'em drive away over the hill,
Not against his will, an' I've got time to kill,
Down in Brokenheartsville.
Sweet-talkin' forked tongue haf a temptin' charm.
Before I turned around, that boy was gone.
All I can say is: "Bartender, pour me somethin' strong."
Here's to the past, they can kiss my glass.
I hope he's happy with her.
Here's to the boy, who wrecked my world,
That angel who did me in.
I think the devil drives a Coupe de Ville.
I watched 'em drive away over the hill,
Not against his will, an' I've got time to kill,
Down in Brokenheartsville.
5.11.2008
Happy Mother's Day!
Have you called your mom yet? If not, grab your phone and start dialing! Even if she does not deserve the Mother of the Year Award every mother needs to know how much they are appreciated at least once a year. I mean, think about it, you would not be here if it wasn't for her.
But the child's mother said, "As surely as the Lord lives and as you live, I will not leave you," 2 Kings 4.30
I know, the picture is old, but it is always a goodie.
5.09.2008
My First MRI
I will confess that I was a MRI virgin up until this morning. I would describe it as more uncomfortable than painful. Besides the injection in my arm, which was a little painful, everything else in the process was just down right uncomfortable.
Before any of the action started I was prescribed Valium in order to relax during the procedure. The assistant explained the step by step process to me as she handed me my hospital gown and robe. They would be taking eight pictures, six with the injection from my arm, two without.
I was told to lay on the MRI bed as the male nurse and assistant handed me a pillow for my head and my feet. They padded my sides with cushion and made sure my ear plugs were snug inside me.
The helmet came on and they slid me into the screening section. The noises were excruciating which made me really uncomfortable because I don't like loud noises to begin with. I don't even like the television volume to exceed the limit of five.
The whole procedure took about forty-five minutes to complete. The male nurse gave me my copy of the X-Rays to give to my neurologist during my follow up session with him. I should hear about the results by Tuesday at the latest.
So that was a snitch. I was scared. I still am. I'm more scared now to hear what the results are. Even if my doctor does find something to be a little disturbing and tells me to do another MRI I think I'll be more calm about it, (hopefully this won't happen). After all, you always remember your first.
Before any of the action started I was prescribed Valium in order to relax during the procedure. The assistant explained the step by step process to me as she handed me my hospital gown and robe. They would be taking eight pictures, six with the injection from my arm, two without.
I was told to lay on the MRI bed as the male nurse and assistant handed me a pillow for my head and my feet. They padded my sides with cushion and made sure my ear plugs were snug inside me.
The helmet came on and they slid me into the screening section. The noises were excruciating which made me really uncomfortable because I don't like loud noises to begin with. I don't even like the television volume to exceed the limit of five.
The whole procedure took about forty-five minutes to complete. The male nurse gave me my copy of the X-Rays to give to my neurologist during my follow up session with him. I should hear about the results by Tuesday at the latest.
So that was a snitch. I was scared. I still am. I'm more scared now to hear what the results are. Even if my doctor does find something to be a little disturbing and tells me to do another MRI I think I'll be more calm about it, (hopefully this won't happen). After all, you always remember your first.
5.07.2008
Enhancing My Vacabulary
I think those People Magazine crossword puzzles I habitually do every Friday have enhanced my vocabulary to the extent that I know every answer on Merv Griffin's Crossword Game Show. Wow. What a way to spend my lunch breaks.
5.05.2008
Revolutionary Randomness
How far away is your 10 yr reunion? 4 years
Do you speed up when you go thru an intersection? If it's a yellow light, yes
How far away is work? 15 minutes away.
How often are you late for work? We have a five minute grace period. I'm within that time frame.
Everyone's got one...
Who's the person you can't stand at work? His name will remain anonymous.
Do you give strangers fake smiles? If I need to. I'm pretty nice to most people.
Do you face your money all the same direction? Yes.
Do you put your money in order from largest amount to smallest? It keeps me more organized.
Do you eat borritos with a knife and fork? I don't eat burritos.
What color is your cell phone? Silver and pink.
Ever pretend to be annoyed when your phone rings but secretly love it? Haha Yes!
Did you know the sweetener in diet soda turns into formaldahyde (emblaming fluid) When it's at body temperature? No, I didn't know that.
Did you just swear off diet soda? I don't drink soda.
Have you ever named a pet the name you wanted for your first child? I would.
Do you really need to take your dog everywhere? NO!
What kind of computer are you on? Samsung.
What is your favorite kind of apple? Granny Smith.
What is the last thing you had to drink? Hot chocolate.
Is your hair down or up? Up.
How many windows/tabs are open on your computer? A couple.
Have you spoken to anyone on the phone today? Yes.
What would you say is your worst habit? Probably being late to anything.
Do you own any expensive jewelry? Yes.
Have you ever roasted marshmallows on a fire? Of course.
What is the closest thing to you that is pink? My phone.
Who was the last person to text you? Amanda.
Have you ever been out of the country? Yes.
Is a glass half empty, or half full? Always half full
Do you wear shorts more often, or skirts? I guess I wear more skirts since I wear them to work.
What color is the shirt you're wearing? Navy blue.
Do you wear glasses/contacts? Both. But not at the same time.
What brand are the shoes that you're wearing? Tommy.
What is the last phrase you said out loud? "Do you want to play a card game?"
Do you prefer Mexican food, or Chinese food? Chinese.
Have you ever been in a wedding? Yes.
How about to a funeral? Yes.
Does your shower have doors, or curtains? Doors.
Where was your default picture taken? In my parent's kitchen on my sister's 16th birthday.
Have you ever gone deep sea fishing? Does snorkeling in the gulf count?
Do you own slippers? Yes.
Would you ever use a Ouija Board? Never.
Have you ever ran with scissors? Probably.
Have you ever tried to lick your elbow? Haha yea.
Are you ticklish? Not too much, but yes.
Are your toenails painted? No.
Do you speed
How far away is work?
How often
Every
Who'
Do you give stran
Do you face your money
Do you put your money
Do you eat borri
What color
Ever prete
Did you know the sweet
Did you just swear
Have you ever named
Do you reall
What kind of compu
What is your favor
What is the last thing
Is your hair down or up? Up.
How many windo
Have you spoke
What would
Do you own any expen
Have you ever roast
What is the close
Who was the last perso
Have you ever been out of the count
Is a glass
Do you wear short
What color
Do you wear glass
What brand
What is the last phras
Do you prefe
Have you ever been in a weddi
How about
Does your showe
Where
Have you ever gone deep sea fishi
Do you own slipp
Would
Have you ever ran with sciss
Have you ever tried
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Are your toena
When Grandma Goes To Court
My mom sent me this...
Lawyers should never ask a Mississippi grandma a question if they aren't prepared for the answer.
In a trial, a Southern small-town prosecuting attorney called his first witness, a grandmotherly, elderly woman to the stand. He approached her and asked, 'Mrs. Jones, do you know me?'
She responded, 'Why, yes, I do know you, Mr. Williams. I've known you since you were a boy, and frankly, you've been a big disappointment to me. You lie, you cheat on your wife, and you manipulate people and talk about them behind their backs. You think you're a big shot when you haven't the brains to realize you'll never amount to anything more than a two-bit paper pusher. Yes, I know you.'
The lawyer was stunned. Not knowing what else to do, he pointed across the room and asked, 'Mrs. Jones, do you know the defense attorney?'
She again replied, ' Why yes, I do. I've known Mr. Bradley since he was a youngster, too. He's lazy, bigoted, and he has a drinking problem. He can't build a normal relationship with anyone, and his law practice is one of the worst in the entire state. Not to mention he cheated on his wife with three different women. One of them was your wife. Yes, I know him.'
The defense attorney nearly died.
The judge asked both counselors to approach the bench and, in a very quiet voice, said, 'If either of you idiots asks her if she knows me, I'll send you both to the electric chair.'
5.04.2008
I'm Scared
I've been trying to laugh this subject off like it's no big deal but the people around me aren't. Yes, I have been dealing with sufficient migraines for the past couple of months that have involved excruciating pain. The type of pain like, "if I feel a migraine coming forget the plans for that night, dear because I won't be able to move pain". I went to see a neurologist this past Wednesday to see what he could ponder up. He listed the likeliness of having migraines:
Then came the neurology tests: following the finger with only my eyes and without moving your head, the sobriety test which details a focus of touching my nose to his finger not by speed but by accuracy and walking in a straight line not only forwards, but backwards, on my tippy toes, and my heels.
Passed, passed, and passed. This wore me out. He then took out a gadget that tested my reflexes: the elbows, knees and the souls of my feet. I had to tell him if the gadget was hot or cold on both hands, and if it was sharp or dull on the bottom of my feet. Then he did the notorious hit to the knee.
This is where we found a problem. My reflexes on my right side are completely normal, however my reflexes on my left side are numb, or "don't match the same reaction as your right side." Coincidentally, this is how my migraines start; Left to right. Now that we have found the problem we need to fix it. He scheduled me for a MRI for this upcoming Friday.
I agreed even though I was feeling really uneasy by this point. He explained to me he wasn't trying to scare me but he also wasn't one of those doctors that just, "schedules this stuff. There's a problem on your left side. It could be leading up to hemorrhaging. I need to find out for sure."
Hemorrhaging. Wow. That's scary stuff. I mean, not to sound pessimistic but couldn't that lead to a stroke? Is a twenty-four year old capable of having a stroke? I always like to see the water half full so I'm not even going to consider thinking about that unless I absolutely have to. I'm going to take it one day at a time and see what the MRI finds. It could end up being absolutely nothing besides my paranoia. Besides, I have a full schedule of activities to keep my mind busy during the week. (No pun intended). Work, AM walks with Alissa, work, American Idol, work, LOST get together, and more work. I'll keep you updated.
Trust the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3.5-6
- I'm a girl.
- Family history
- Have anxiety
Then came the neurology tests: following the finger with only my eyes and without moving your head, the sobriety test which details a focus of touching my nose to his finger not by speed but by accuracy and walking in a straight line not only forwards, but backwards, on my tippy toes, and my heels.
Passed, passed, and passed. This wore me out. He then took out a gadget that tested my reflexes: the elbows, knees and the souls of my feet. I had to tell him if the gadget was hot or cold on both hands, and if it was sharp or dull on the bottom of my feet. Then he did the notorious hit to the knee.
This is where we found a problem. My reflexes on my right side are completely normal, however my reflexes on my left side are numb, or "don't match the same reaction as your right side." Coincidentally, this is how my migraines start; Left to right. Now that we have found the problem we need to fix it. He scheduled me for a MRI for this upcoming Friday.
I agreed even though I was feeling really uneasy by this point. He explained to me he wasn't trying to scare me but he also wasn't one of those doctors that just, "schedules this stuff. There's a problem on your left side. It could be leading up to hemorrhaging. I need to find out for sure."
Hemorrhaging. Wow. That's scary stuff. I mean, not to sound pessimistic but couldn't that lead to a stroke? Is a twenty-four year old capable of having a stroke? I always like to see the water half full so I'm not even going to consider thinking about that unless I absolutely have to. I'm going to take it one day at a time and see what the MRI finds. It could end up being absolutely nothing besides my paranoia. Besides, I have a full schedule of activities to keep my mind busy during the week. (No pun intended). Work, AM walks with Alissa, work, American Idol, work, LOST get together, and more work. I'll keep you updated.
Trust the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3.5-6
5.01.2008
Momzillas!
People usually think that the brides are the most reckless, selfish and temperamental girls during the planning process than anyone else. Wrong. I have concurred that the moms are far worse. On that note, I must say my mom was the best person to work with when I was planning my own wedding.
I couldn't imagine a bride that has to deal with an insane mother. I mean, get a life lady, you already had your day when dirt was new. This is your daughter's. I had this encounter tonight while I was working.
I only went in for four hours since I called out sick. I wasn't too worried about it because I have done overtime during this past week (but that's a totally different story for a different day). Anyway, as I was budgeting the numbers that we made yesterday for the first day of our Friends and Family event, I was approached by a MOB (mother of the bride) and an aunt. They explained to me that they had just driven from Burlington to purchase two goblets. Fantastic so far. Our computer showed that we had two, however we technically only had one for buying because the other one was the floor model. I explained to them under no circumstances I could sell the floor model. That's when all holy hell broke loose. The MOB said the shower was tomorrow and she had to get two goblets for a present. OK, this is when you want to scream, "idiot! your the bride's mom and your procrastinating until the last minute? How dare you!" But I didn't. They asked to speak to a manager, she said the same thing. We can't sell the model. They took our names and blah blah blah.
It was quiet in the store after they left and I was able to roughly listen to the new music the store is trying out. One song happened to be Hanson. I thought that was funny.
Everybody's looking for a blue sky
Searching for an answer on a satellite
I know that there's got to be a blue sky out there to see
A blue sky waiting for me
If you want to call that excitement go right ahead. It just boggles my mind how moms can be so neurotic about little things during their daughter's engagement. Making the day all about them. How selfish can one person get? I truly believe this is how the bride gets so stressed out. I keep thinking to myself how lucky I was to have a mom that was completely devoted to the wedding planning, however let me do the actions. She went with me as well as my sister and cousin (the maid of honor) to the taste testings, the appointments with the vendors, the reception sites, the wedding registry, and the dress shopping, (and I must point out I chose the 3rd dress I tried on). It was just hard core FUN! I had the final say with everything...if it was in the budget.
On another note, whatever music Aaron's playing is really cool. Good play list. Keep it real.
Being sick sucks but it's funny how Jim went around our room spraying Oust. Good times. Hopefully it won't last long because I'm really excited about our trip to Florida next weekend and I would appreciate it if my immune system could enjoy the vacation as well.
I couldn't imagine a bride that has to deal with an insane mother. I mean, get a life lady, you already had your day when dirt was new. This is your daughter's. I had this encounter tonight while I was working.
I only went in for four hours since I called out sick. I wasn't too worried about it because I have done overtime during this past week (but that's a totally different story for a different day). Anyway, as I was budgeting the numbers that we made yesterday for the first day of our Friends and Family event, I was approached by a MOB (mother of the bride) and an aunt. They explained to me that they had just driven from Burlington to purchase two goblets. Fantastic so far. Our computer showed that we had two, however we technically only had one for buying because the other one was the floor model. I explained to them under no circumstances I could sell the floor model. That's when all holy hell broke loose. The MOB said the shower was tomorrow and she had to get two goblets for a present. OK, this is when you want to scream, "idiot! your the bride's mom and your procrastinating until the last minute? How dare you!" But I didn't. They asked to speak to a manager, she said the same thing. We can't sell the model. They took our names and blah blah blah.
It was quiet in the store after they left and I was able to roughly listen to the new music the store is trying out. One song happened to be Hanson. I thought that was funny.
Everybody's looking for a blue sky
Searching for an answer on a satellite
I know that there's got to be a blue sky out there to see
A blue sky waiting for me
If you want to call that excitement go right ahead. It just boggles my mind how moms can be so neurotic about little things during their daughter's engagement. Making the day all about them. How selfish can one person get? I truly believe this is how the bride gets so stressed out. I keep thinking to myself how lucky I was to have a mom that was completely devoted to the wedding planning, however let me do the actions. She went with me as well as my sister and cousin (the maid of honor) to the taste testings, the appointments with the vendors, the reception sites, the wedding registry, and the dress shopping, (and I must point out I chose the 3rd dress I tried on). It was just hard core FUN! I had the final say with everything...if it was in the budget.
On another note, whatever music Aaron's playing is really cool. Good play list. Keep it real.
Being sick sucks but it's funny how Jim went around our room spraying Oust. Good times. Hopefully it won't last long because I'm really excited about our trip to Florida next weekend and I would appreciate it if my immune system could enjoy the vacation as well.
4.29.2008
His and Her's
[one]
What are your middle names?
Michael and Jean
[two]
How long have you been together?
Together: four years. Married: Over a year.
[three]
How long did you know each other before you started dating?
About ten months.
[four]
Who asked who out?
He asked me.
[five]
How old are each of you?
He is 25 I'm 24.
[six]
What are your astrological signs?
Libra, Scorpio.
[seven]
Who's mother do you see the most?
Ironically mine even though he's lives just four hours away and mine is 1600 miles away.
[eight]
Who’s siblings do you see the most?
Again, mine.
[nine]
Do you have any children together?
Nope.
[ten]
What about pets?
We have balloons :)
[eleven]
How many times a week do you see each other?
Everyday.
[twelve]
Who said I love you first?
I did.
[thirteen]
Did you go to the same school?
We went to the came college.
[fourteen]
Are you from the same hometown?
No.
[fifteen]
Do you live in the same town now?
Yes.
[sixteen]
Who's the smartest?
Depends on the topic.
[tnineteen]
Who is more sensitive?
I am.
[twenty]
Where do you eat out at most as a couple?
We really don't eat out that much. If we did, probably 99.
[twenty one]
Where do you shop the most as a couple?
Macy*s and Old Navy.
[twenty two]
Where is the furthest you have traveled as a couple?
Hawaii.
[twenty three]
Who has the best group of friends?
We have the same friends.
[twenty four]
Who has the worst temper?
He does.
[twenty five]
Who does the cooking?
He's a good cook.
[twenty six]
Who is more social?
I am.
[twenty seven]
Who is the neat-freak?
ME!
[twenty eight]
Who is the most affectionate?
We're pretty equal on that part.
[twenty nine]
Who is the most stubborn?
We both are very stubborn!
[thirty]
Who hogs the bed?
That's personal.
[thirty one]
Who wakes up earlier?
He does.
[thirty two]
Who has the bigger family?
I do.
[thirty three]
Do you give/get flowers often?
Yes!
[thirty four]
How do you spend the holidays?
We're learning how to split the holidays between families. So far it's been OK.
[thirty five]
Do you have pet names for each other?
No.
What are your middl
Michael and Jean
[two]
How long have you been toget
Together: four years. Married: Over a year.
[
How long did you know each other
About ten months.
[
Who asked
He asked
[
How old are each of you?
He is 25 I'm 24.
[six]
What are your astro
Libra, Scorpio.
[
Who'
Ironically mine even though he's lives just four hours away and mine is 1600 miles away.
[
Who’s
Again, mine.
[
Do you have any child
Nope.
[ten]
What about
We have balloons :)
[
How many times
Every
[
Who said I love you first
I did.
[
Did you go to the same schoo
We went to the came college.
[
Are you from the same homet
No.
[
Do you live in the same town now?
Yes.
[
Who'
Depen
[
Who is more sensi
I am.
[
Where
We really don't eat out that much. If we did, probably 99.
[
Where
Macy*s and Old Navy.
[
Where
Hawaii.
[
Who has the best group
We have the same friends.
[
Who has the worst
He does.
[
Who does the cooki
He's a good cook.
[
Who is more socia
I am.
[
Who is the neat-
ME!
[
Who is the most affec
We're pretty equal on that part.
[
Who is the most stubb
We both are very stubb
[
Who hogs the bed?
That's personal.
[
Who wakes
He does.
[
Who has the bigge
I do.
[
Do you give/
Yes!
[
How do you spend
We're learning how to split the holidays between families. So far it's been OK.
[
Do you have pet names
No.
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